Seems So Long Ago

It seems like it has been more than just a month since our lives changed forever. It seems so long ago......

It seems so long ago that I heard my daughter's heartbeat.
It seems so long ago that I saw her yawn during an ultrasound.
It seems so long ago that I packed her coming home outfit in her diaper bag.
It seems so long ago that I have heard my phone beep alerting me I had another text from our birth mother.
It seems so long ago that my heart would skip a beat when I heard our lawyer's voice.....now her voice only makes my heart remember the joy that once abounded there.
It seems so long ago that I heard those empty promises that she would NEVER go back on her word and keep our baby.
It seems so long ago that I have seen the woman who I grew to love with all my heart.
It seems so long ago that we sat in a hospital waiting room for 2 hours expecting birth mom's arrival at the hospital. Pleading and praying to God that she would arrive for delivery and that she hadn't changed her mind.
It seems so long ago that I heard our lawyer tell Mike, " Leave the hospital now....she doesn't want you there. She says she hasn't changed her mind about placing baby with you but she wants you away from her tonight. Wait to hear from me regarding when to come pick up your baby from the hospital."

One month has gone by in our lives but one month seems so long ago.......